The House Dog's Grave
(Haig, an English Bulldog)
Robinson
Jeffers
I've changed
my ways a little; I cannot now
Run with
you in the evenings along the shore,
Except
in a kind of dream; and you,
If you
dream a moment,
You see
me there.
So leave
awhile the paw-marks on the front door
Where I
used to scratch to go out or in,
And you'd
soon open; leave on the kitchen floor
The marks
of my drinking-pan.
I cannot
lie by your fire as I used to do
On the
warm stone,
Nor at
the foot of your bed;
no, all
the night through
I lie alone.
But your
kind thought has laid me less than six feet
Outside
your window where firelight so often plays,
And where
you sit to read — and I fear often grieving for me —
Every night
your lamplight lies on my place.
You, man
and woman, live so long, it is hard
To think
of you ever dying
A little
dog would get tired, living so long.
I hope than
when you are lying
Under the
ground like me your lives will appear
As good
and joyful as mine.
No, dear,
that's too much hope: you are not so well cared for
As I have
been.
And never
have known the passionate undivided
Fidelities
that I knew.
Your minds
are perhaps too active, too many-sided...
But to
me you were true.
You were
never masters, but friends. I was your friend.
I loved
you well, and was loved. Deep love endures
To the
end and far past the end. If this is my end,
I am not
lonely. I am not afraid. I am still yours.